我用落葉砌成一朵花，然後在沙中不自覺地重覆畫圈，把中間的花圍住。
當我漫無目的地畫圈時，突然發現一塊塊小小的碎石。我把碎石逐顆拾起，小心翼翼地安放在花的中心；然後，有一股不知哪裡來的力量，好想把落葉穩穩地插在沙堆之中，於是我又把落葉逐塊插好，
生怕它們會被風吹走一樣。那感覺是不舒服的，像是一種破壞自然的感覺，但我就是繼續把玩著眼前的落葉。
那是一種想要抓住什麼的慾望嗎？又或是一種需要被支持、保護的渴望？
然後，我隨手抓起一把沙，輕輕灑在圖案之中。灑落中的沙粒像下雨一樣，很安靜，很美麗。我抓完一把又一把，看著沙粒井然有序地落下，世界好像靜止下來，時間彷彿變慢了；落葉也因此各散東西，漸漸消失在眼前，我感到坦然舒暢——原來，無論我多麼努力想控制一點什麼，它總會順著自然的定律與軌跡，找到屬於自己的位置。突然之間，我好像明白了一點什麼，看到藍天與海，聽到海浪聲，也感受到微風帶來的清新空氣，享受到那唯一的當下的美好。
不如，嘗試放開一點，讓一切隨緣，自由就在此處。
I arranged fallen leaves in the shape of a flower, and I found myself drawing circular lines in the sand to contain the flower.
As I was doodling the lines, small stones came to my sight unexpectedly. There was an urge to place them firmly and carefully one by one in the centre. I felt an impulse to dig the leaves deep into the sand. It felt uncomfortable, and it even felt a sense of violation, but that did not stop me, and I did it anyway.
Was there a desire to hold onto something or was there a need to be held?
I decided to sprinkle some sand from above. As I mindfully watched the sprinkling sand, I felt a sense of relief. It was beautiful. Instead of digging the leaves deep down, I felt better seeing them dispersed and being hidden in the sand. It looked fine just the way it was. Perhaps no matter how hard I try or control, things will follow its flow in Nature. From that second onwards, I was more aware of my surroundings and felt more connected with the wind, the blue sky, the sound of the waves, and was more able to enjoy the beauty of the here and now.
I was able to let go of the drive to control or to hold on to something. I felt free. Everything in life has its own path to follow. Relax, and let it be.
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